As I have a vacation, me and my little one went to my moms and dads home to spend some time outside and make a picnic. Before making a picnic, we all wanted to do some gardening works in the yard. We burned some old branches and leaves, removed spruce brunches from roses and even planted the first flowers into my moms flowerbed. I was very glad to help my parents and the little one just enjoyed the time outside, riding with a bicycle, playing in the the send box and just having fun in the yard.
As the spring is finally here and I have a two week vacation, I am trying to spend more time outside together with my family. This week we had an unexpected walk into the woods. A very good friend of my boyfriend ( lets call him E. further)was organizing a sports activities in nature and need a little help. So we found ourselves taking a few km walk into the nature. My little one couldn’t make all of the way, but he I was still very proud of how far did we get. The sun was shining and it was calm and quiet around so all three of us really enjoyed it.
Yesterdays evening E. suggested that we could drive to the Cesvaine Palace and take a short walk. Of course I said yes! I love taking a walks and I absolutely love the castles and palaces. The weather was perfect, there were almost no other people around and we just had a very good time talking to each other, taking photos. My little one and E. were competing in throwing stones into the lake and there was a lot of laughing this evening. I really enjoyed it!
The palace was built at the end of the 19th century and belonged to baron Emil von Wulf family (from Germany).
During the Easter holidays me and my little one spend more time in my families home where I grew up. While trying to find some book of mine I found something that I had totally forgot. I found my note book that I was writing when I was still in high school.
This reminded me that there are things that probably never change, even when we are growing up. My never ending love for old buildings (or what’s left of them) reminding of lost centuries. I guess I need to plan some trip to the castles when I will have my vacation.
I also found some weird doll idea sketches.. I’m having my vacation in a week and I was planing to start to make my dolls again, so the forgotten sketches in my high school note book brought a big smile into my face.
At the very end of my note book I found my notes about different kind of herbs and its exposure. Both- medical and magical. And I do believe that it works.
I still collect herbs for tea every summer. And I sill believe that You have to thank Mother Nature when You take something from her. Almost untouched nature is still the place I feel the best and feeling your ancient roots while living in the city filled with concrete monsters still seems crucial.
This year Easter came so early that the ground is still covered with snow. There has been too much cold and gray this year, so I have started to create my own spring on kitchens windows sill. While reading further, please don’t pay an attention to terrible quality of pictures- I wasn’t planning to post them at all first, but, as I have a very bad memory (with bad I mean, really bad) I keep taking pictures a lot with everything happening around me.
This Easter we had really nice time together with all my family in my moms home. We were making cookies, painting eggs, decorating the house. This year again I was responsible for egg coloring. And for a very ling time- I really liked the result (I dyed eggs in onion peels, blueberries and curry juice with leaves and grass we could found under the snow.
But one of the best things during those holidays was the day my dad took me and my little one to one of my favorite places in whole world- to our forest, which is an absolute energy and peace renovator for me. While my little one had some fun slipping from the hill, I took a short walk through the forest and I felt absolutely delighted.
I guess every kid know this feeling…whell, at least I remember myself asking my parents “how much longer?” a) till the Christmass, b) till we will get to Riga, Lithuania etc. c) till my birthday. Continue reading
Winter got me. And the sickness got me. Haven’t been writing a while. Haven’t got a “home alone” evening a while. But today I have. Continue reading
Lately I’ve been playing this song All for a lot (this is one of my absolute favorite Latvian bands) in my playlist all over and over again and the more I listen to it, the more I caught myself getting a little bit nervous? (not the right word). Something starts digging into me. Knock, knock, knocking deep down inside of me. And even while doing some ordinary everyday jobs like washing the dishes I catch myself thinking about painting and making my human-bird dolls that I haven’t made for some 5 or 6 years. Some short frame lightnings runs through my head. Ideas.Finally! I’ve been lost this feeling for a way too long time. Or maybe I was just trying to avoid this feeling!?
Coming back to my hometown after 5 years spent in Riga (our capital city), wasn’t easy for me. I had my bachelor degree in the work of arts, than had my little wonder (who is an amazing 5 year old now) and returned to this small city of Latvia in which I live now. No concerts, no performances, no exhibitions (not that kind that I love), no theater or late night sitting in a cafes and talking to strangers…
So, not to miss all those things, I concentrated to becoming a mom, concentrated to what my kid needs and I guess I was putting a part of me somewhere aside. I was trying to enjoy the things this city offers, but sometimes it feels like..run, rabbit, run. But, I guess You cannot run from yourself. Well, at least not for a long.
For now I have my head full of visions of exhibition I want to make. And I just loooove that feeling when your head is full of ideas. Have no idea how to do realize them for now, but at least it is no more “run, rabbit, run”
As I was writing in my previous blog post, I am thinking a lot about the motivation and changes. Not a lifetime changing changes. Not that big. At least, not for the moment. Baby steps first. This morning I woke up pretty stiff after yesterdays workout. That’s a normal thing. But somehow I started to think wouldn’t it be great if I could woke up some 5 minutes earlier and do a little morning workout just to prepare my body for a new day? And wouldn’t it be more amazing, if I could do it together with my little one?
And so we did it. Just some 5 minutes this morning we did some squats, stretching and other exercises. And we really had fun together, because my son could do all of the exercises more easier than me and he loved to count while we were doing squats.
These are just a 5 minutes. Baby steps. But I think that would be a nice morning ritual.
Lately I am thinking much about the motivation. I always have had a head full of thousands of ideas and things I wish to try out. Ideas for paintings, photos, stories, books. Doll making ideas, traveling ideas, ideas of how to change the way my home looks like. Ideas of me being fit (and by that I don’t mean being skinny, ’cause I always have been, but to make my body stronger, healthier), some kind of future vision with me going to a gym and really enjoying it. I have started to do all of these things. But I’m a quitter. It’s hard to admit it, but I am. I always loose the interest or stop doing something when the first difficulties show up, or quit one thing to start something totally new and different. There are so many things that I have started, but the list with things I have finished is way too short.
And so lately I find myself thinking a lot about why I wanna do all those things. What’s my motivation. I always have answered this question differently. But today I have a very short answer – I want to do this because of me. I wanna go to the gym, because I want my body to feel good.Because I like to see the changes those training gives me (even if I am the only one who sees them, because I know me the best). I want to paint, because it makes me feel good (even if no one will ever see my paintings). I wanna sew those toys, because I wan’t my kid and friends kids have something personnel from me, something where I have putted a peace of my heart in. I want to sew, because it calms me and I really enjoy it. I want to learn to cook, dance, sing better and change the color of my kitchen walls because of me.
I want to stop doing things because of others and start to do them just because of me. I guess, it took me more than 10 years to realize it, to find the right motivation to make things happen! So I let the new journey begin!
I have been very lucky to travel around the world time after time since my childhood. My parents always wanted me and my sister to see more, to see something different and expand our horizons. And I am very thankful them that they showed me the beauty of different cultures, different life styles and little piece of how beautiful is our planet.
As my little one is still a little bit too small to travel far away countries, we are trying to travel around our country piece by piece. I think that a lot of people are traveling around the world not even noticing how beautiful and full of interesting places are their own country. So, time after time I will share a little pieces of my attempts to travel around the Latvia.
Today I went to the seaside. Haven’t been there since summer and I missed it a lot. Unfortunately it was raining and very windy, so we could take such a long walk as I wished, but still… The power of nature, silence and feeling of freedom- I managed to catch it. Being near the sea, being deep in forest, walking through the fields with no houses and no people is my way to reload my inner batteries. (Picture taken in Tūja)
Later we went to one of my favorite cities in Latvia- Cēsis. Very beautiful and old city with a lot of old wooden buildings, labyrinths of small streets and a castle of course. I am an absolute lover of old houses, paved streets and other things reminding of ancient times.
Sometimes you don’t need much to have a dose of inspiration for the rest of the week.